I just want to get into my pajamas and go to sleep for at least week. The holidays are fun but, as the years go on, I find myself unwilling to run myself ragged.
We started a new tradition of doing a family dinner the day before Christmas Eve. Less stress and no guilt.
I have spent a majority of today in a state of relaxation. The morning started with a trip to the movies to see "Rogue One: A Star Wars Story". Afterwards, I stopped into a local BBQ joint for a late lunch and then headed home.
The weather here is cold and the roads are slickered down with ice. I am looking forward to watching the Chiefs play at a nearby bar tomorrow afternoon and then safely retreating back into my domicile.
I used color, texture, and patterns to turn ordinary outer wear into something more. The coat is variations on the color brown and its texture is a bit rough to the touch. The pattern of this coat states "I mean business". I used a camel colored scarf to soften the business-like tone of the coat. The chocolate brown hat pulls the ensemble together.
This red cape brings the fierceness out in me. I threw it on earlier this week over dark blue jeans, a cranberry sweater, houndstooth jacket, and capped off with Cognac colored ballet flats.
I sashayed through the parking lot and into the office building. I have resurrected the fierceness and now there is no turning back.
I am not ready for December. (Too late, I know.) But, 2016 for all of its unexpected twists and turns has been a transformative year for me. I said farewell to old toxic behaviors and embraced new life-giving ones.
I realized that my loyalty is too precious to be wasted on people and situation which were no longer worthy of it. This realization was fueled by a long bout of spiritual fatigue which had settled over my soul.
I know that 2017 has both some triumphs and challenges in store for me. I feel more than equipped to handle them.
This is my first Christmas as a foster parent. My placement is new to the system as well.
We have spent the past few weeks trying to get to know one another. Recently, we have cultivated a solid routine which is about to be disrupted by the upcoming Christmas holiday season. The holidays can be difficult for foster children and their biological families.
I am conscious of this and will make a conscious effort to hold emotional space for her during this difficult time.